I went outdoors today. It is a big deal for me, I rarely leave the confines of my house. I can’t imagine there’s many people stop to take in the wonder of being outside every day. I spend the cold months in a hibernation of sorts, the cold, damp Scottish winter disagrees with me. I don’t think I have mentioned yet that I live with a condition called Fibromyalgia along with a host of other health problems but it is this condition that affects my health severely. I have very limited mobility, I hobble my way around indoors but outdoors I am wheelchair bound. I live with constant pain which I have learned to cope with and as long as the levels are tolerable. Sometimes the pain spikes so high that I do believe it will drive me crazy, that I will be carted off to a Victorian style insane asylum before the day is through. I am still here though! I am still sane! I am still coping and carrying on.
Warm weather is my friend, cold weather is my enemy. In the colder months I stay in my nest, keeping warm and keeping dry and waiting, waiting to see tiny buds peeking out of the earth. They whisper to me “soon” and “just a little longer, stay strong”. I listen and wait. When I do go out it is because I have to, mostly medical appointments or visiting family when I just can’t be inside any longer. Today it was an appointment with the pain clinic that pulled me out into the world. It was a dreary morning to say the least! Dark, gloomy and the air was heavy with moisture; it wasn’t raining, it was the dreaded drizzle, you end up soaked to the skin before you know it because it’s only drizzle, you don’t need a coat. We Scots know to have a healthy respect for drizzle, we don’t forget our waterproofs!
My appointment went well and we hit the shops. Oh I love to shop but even that can’t draw me out on a non-appointment day! Marks & Spencers food outlet, somewhere only the well off can do their whole food shop; even they would grudge the prices though their products do tend to be worth it! Then off to Tesco. I decided to stay in the car, I had already went quite substantially “off list” with two bunches of beautiful Alstromerias, a half price box of milk chocolates, a really yummy looking shortcrust chicken pie, red grapes and strawberries! Not essentials! My husband is a far more efficient shopper than I am. So then home time, a half hours drive usually but not today!
The weather had improved, it was dry and the sun was out, albeit behind a blanket of white clouds. There was a haziness to the air, smoke dissipating as gardeners were taking advantage of a dry afternoon to burn the dead leaves. I had brought the camera along with me and asked if we could stop at a few lay-bys to take a few pictures. One of the best ways to cope with pain is distraction, I find taking pictures a great distraction and so we arrived home two hours later with over two hundred photographs.
It may be cold, damp, dank, bleak and feels unending at times but there is beauty out there! You just have to SEE it. Everywhere I looked there was something interesting, something beautiful, something to remind me I am still in the world, I am still living my life and it is wonderful!
So here I have shared some from today and I can’t wait to show you more.. please remember I am not a photographer I just like to take pictures.. be kind and enjoy.